A normal female college student lives for nights spent primping in front of a mirror or prepping for a night out. I, on the other hand, live for the little notification that pops up in my inbox notifying me of a new email. Although I do enjoying getting all “dolled up” for a night out on the town, nothing causes my adrenaline to rise more than being proactive about my career. I began pouring my heart and soul into building a bright future for myself during my freshman year of high school. Now, four years later, I have finally entered my freshman year of college and am more eager than ever to explore all the professional opportunities I can get my hands on.
If you ask my roommate what I do at night, she would either say that I am eating potato chips with siracha and hummus, pelting her with pillows, having a puppet show, or I am sitting in my bed working. Its funny, really- how I can go from uber quirky, lets have a fun time Mandy to do not bother me, let me get work done Mandy in the blink of an eye. Okay, actually in the click of the clock. There are certain hours that I work best during, and those hours always seem to be at night. My parents joke around and say that I come alive after 10pm, and I’m pretty positive that my close friends would agree with that statement.
Growing up, I spent 30 hours a week in the ballet studio. While I found it challenging to literally live at the studio, go to school, and balance a social life- nothing has been harder for me than balancing college, a social life, and a career. It is single-handedly the most challenging thing I have ever had to do.
I try my very best to live my life to the fullest. I always struggle with finding my true purpose in life. Its difficult to know that you could be destined for a life completely different than the one you are currently living. Growing up, I always trusted in the fact that everything happens for a reason and what is meant to be will be… but I always had my doubts.
Every time I failed at something, I lost a bit of faith in that idea. Every friend that has walked out of my life, every time I have been hurt- whenever something does not go according to my perfect plan, I lose a tiny ounce of faith in the idea that everything happens for a reason. I started this blog for a reason. That reason was to help unite people with their inner confidence, and through that I have been reunited with mine. But at the same time, I have to understand that I will only be able to experience college, and specifically my freshman year at college, once in my life. I know I need to absorb everything around me and take in every opportunity, but I am learning that saying “yes” to everything is just not possible. This results in plenty of late nights and one too many early mornings.
Remember this shirt from my post about Grace and Kenny Designs? Its my go-to for whenever I want to be comfortable while working in public! Their shirts are super cute and preppy and comfortable. Its a win, win, win!
Blogging may seem easy. All you do is write and take pictures of your Starbucks cup and outfit, right? Wrong. Blogging is so much more. My camera roll is filled with multiple versions of the same picture, only to be edited to fit the theme of my Instagram page. I spend hours a night emailing back and fourth with companies and readers. Though I may seem like I am having a blast and socializing a bit too much at school through my social media posts, what you do not often see is the hours I spend working earlier in the day in order to hang out with my friends for a few hours during the evening. Every night when I come back to my room to go to bed, I work. Sometimes I will even wake up in the middle of the night to write a blog post. Its who I am and what I do. I am always searching for a new project to take on because I am oh so very eager to absorb the world around me. I also know that I cannot blog about my life if I am not out there living my life. Its a hard to balance absolutely everything on my plate, and I will be the first to admit that I am indeed struggling. But I know where I want to end up and who I want to become and I refuse to stop (and sleep) until I get there.
I am currently in New York for New York Fashion Week. And I am currently sitting in my hotel room, a few blocks away from down town Times Square, working. Will I get much sleep tonight? No, probably not. But who ever remembers the nights you had plenty of hours of sleep? Or, in my case, when will I ever remember the nights I actually slept over the nights that I wrote something amazing, powerful, inspirational, and raw?
Reguardless of what you do, always remember to remain sassy, optimistic, and a little bit darling.
Oh, and do not forget the most important part…
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